rejected...again........aaaarrrgghhh!!!

ok, so this is how i feel right now.

so, i've been to a couple of interviews, and no one has hired me. why the fuck not? i don't fucking have a rotten-ass attitude, do i? shit man! jaykay, well, seriously, i had an interview tuesday. he told me to go back today for the second part of the interview. so i shhow up, talkt to him for almost half an hour and that was it. he said he would call before 5, and that "he was definitely looking forward to working with me." BULLSHIT. he never called, which means i didn't get the job. but why? that's what i want to know! am i over qualified. because i know for sure i'm not underqualified, and i'm getting sick and tired of this crap. why can't they just tell you straight out that they don't want you instead of making you wait for their stupid calls? argh! so here's to another week of watching tv, and looking for more jobs, jobs that i'm perfectly capable of doing but just won't get hired cause i won't fuck someone to get it! ok, gotta go. gotta go drown myself in my self hating fucking pitty. good bye...

babies...

they poo, a lot.

it seems that a lot of people, or girls, i know are getting preggers. i just found out a couple of days ago my sister is expecting. which is cool, don't get me wrong. i'm kind ahappy for her and her hubby, after all the shit they've gone thru, it's about time to put a baby in their now empty nursery. this kid will now bring my mom's grandkid tally to 5. she feels old, i think it's cool. then she looks at me and my bro and asks when we're next. sorry to disappoint, but i ain't having kids. it's not physically possible. unless i get a vagina, but that's the problem to begin with, i tend to stay away from it....hehehe... my friend has a kid, she's a handful, i'm surprised she can keep up with baby d!

my older brother's got 3 little demons. two girls, one boy. all mexican, but all very blonde with greenish eyes. they're cute kids, i just don't want any. especially the older ones, they fight, a lot. now i know what my parents went through! but the little one is cute, here he is in all his glorious mischief...




so, to all who have kids, you've got my respect. just try to keep them away from me, please...

another looong day...

ok, so if you don't know me, here's a little about me. i'm 22, and i'm broke. seriously, i am. i used to live in san diego, well more like north county (esco, vista), then i moved to los angeles, inglewood to be exact. now i'm back in the imperial valley, trying to prepare myself for the inevitable waves of fire and heat that await me, no, not in hell, but in El Centro...

i used to work for a payday loan company. i hated it, but it paid the bills. i think i was there too long, then i quit. now i'm here, bored, nothing to do. i've applied to a million and one places, but no luck yet. some say i'm overqualified, i say bullshit. am i not mexican enough down here to get a damn job? seriously, if you don't know spanish, you won't get a job anywhere here. but i do know spanish, is it cause i'm fat? cause no one's complained before! but yeah, no job yet, but a ton of bills. but i still don't regret coming back, i needed a break...